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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

My Baby Has a Playlist

Well it is 2007 after all. I ripped all of the Raffi and Baby Einstein that I bought and put it on the ipod. Now when we're out on the town we have some tunes. Which leads me to my next observation which is that I have a lot of crap to do every day. How is that? If Ben is working how am I supposed to stay in the house and still get cat food, and snacks, and sign up for a membership at the Y? Why when I have so much stuff that I actually have to get done do I make up other stuff to do... like yesterday when I went to Barnes and Noble?

I have more to post but it won't come to me. Here's a picture of Chase in her PJ's with kitty cat paws instead.

Monday, January 29, 2007

The Chicken or the Egg?

Is it because of the lack of sleep that I'm too tired to feed myself... or am I so tired because I refuse to feed myself? Wait... I'm really not sure if that expresses what I wanted to say. You'll have to use your imagination.

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Instead of Reading...

I took some pictures. Since Chase is just about 4 weeks old we figured it was time to intro the bottle... especially in case Ben needs it next week while I'm gone. We went to Walmart (that's another story all by itself) and bought some different types of bottles with different nipples. It appears that she likes the one that is more similar to the pacifier that they gave her at the hospital but she was pretty reluctant. I'm gonna get her a onesie that's printed with I love boobie. :)


I know, I Know

I know they say that babies are not as fragile as they seem but jeez.. talk about anxiety. Every time I touch Chase I find myself agonizing over does this hurt are you ok? Today she freaked me out while she was nursing cause I thought she was choking. Sigh... maybe it's because I'm so freakin' tired. I just hope that everyone can bare with me... my baby's first year book assures me that at week 4 sleep cycles start to improve. Humor me and let me hold on to that at least until Thursday.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

It Was Bound to Happen

Lady: Can I see your baby?
Me: Sure.
Lady: Oh, she's a newborn...
Me: Yes, she is.
Lady: Well I did a lot of babysitting in my college days.
Me: Uh, she's my baby I graduated from college several years ago.
Lady: Oh, well, I... uh
Me: (Throws hot coffee in her face) You what lady??
Grr...
In her defense, I was on thh JHU campus and my radiant skin probably makes me look 10 years younger but still come on.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

I Want a Do-Over

So I've been back and forth for a couple of weeks on whether or not I needed to post this. Since it's been a while since I've posted anything of substance I figure I'll give it a shot. So I loved being pregnant. And as much as I love Chase and couldn't wait for her to get here I think that maybe the way the delivery went didn't give me the closure I was looking for and I sort of feel... well a lot of different things about it. I definetely mis the closeness we had when it was just me and her and sometimes when I'm rolling over in bed at night I forget that she's here already and think I'm feeling her move and that leaves me feeling a little sad. Not to mention that not being pregnant makes me resent that I still have to wear my maternity jeans. I don't think I'll ever get my butt back into my pre pregnancy jeans. It makes me sad when other people tell me about their deliveries and how they went even though I'm just glad that we're both healthy and the she's here I just can't help feeling a little cheated even though I know I shouldn't.

Other than that things have been going pretty smoothly. We went to the new mom's group yesterday and aside from the fact that the facilitator does a lousy job I got some good tips
that made Tuesday night much much better than Monday night from hell. Today I think we'll go out for a little while to get some daylight exposure. Maybe Starubucks maybe the book store we'll let you know.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Our Exciting Week




Monday, January 22, 2007

Still on Break

So I got my two weeks of grace... in fact they told me I could use all of my absences so I don't have to go until Thursday of next week. Sweet! Tomorrow we're going to a new mom's group at the hospital. I'm supposed to meet Wendy there so hopefully it will be interesting but I'll keep you posted.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Picture Saturday






Wednesday, January 17, 2007

8lbs 9oz

Baby girl is putting on weight! I guess when Ben described her as a ravenous beast yesterday he wasn't far off the mark. I have lots of things to post but absolutely no energy to write them. I can't even seem to find the energy to respond to email. I'm hoping to get some pep back in my step in the upcoming week. My doc promised that I'd feel much better after the two week mark had passed.

I emailed student affairs yesterday and begged and pleaded for another two weeks off. I'm waiting to hear back from them. Keep your fingers crossed for me otherwise I'm s.o.l., classes started yesterday.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Football Will Never Be the Same

Ben is seriously struggling with watching football without jumping up and down off the couch and screaming and carrying on. I don't think he really thought this whole baby thing all the way through.

Friday, January 12, 2007

What We Learned on Thursday


Yesterday we figured out how to get the thumb in our mouth and not just the fist. See you in hell pacifier!

Thursday, January 11, 2007

A Baby Story

So most of the day Monday I was having painless contractions. Danielle was here for new years so we checked out Wegman's and then walked around the mall there a little before we stopped for lunch and decided to go home. Nothing much came of all the walking and the contractions pretty much stopped once I sat down and put my feet up.

Since nothing big happened, Danielle went home on Monday night. Tuesday, more of the same painless contractions. Wednesday morning I was prepared for another day of waiting but by two o'clock I was pretty sure that we were going to have a baby very soon (within about 24 hours according to my books and online self-diagnosis :-)) Of course Ben had gone into the office that day for the first time in a week and was planning to stay late. Since I really had nothing more than a hunch to go on, I didn't want to send him into panic mode but I was really worried that he's be at work until 8 and not home until 9:30 (which in retrospect would have been a total disaster). Luckily he left work at 3 under his own volition.

By the time Ben got home I was pretty sure that I was in labor and the contractions were getting more painful. While we were waiting for the contractions to come 5 minutes apart for an hour we made souvlakis and watched a little tv. By 8, the contractions were getting to be pretty painful and were about 7 minutes apart. I took a shower and Ben started to get things together to head out to the hospital. By nine I was timing the contractions at 5 minutes or less apart and called the doctor. They told me to go ahead and go over to labor and delivery.

At labor and delivery they put me in the triage room and hooked me up to the monitors. Ben found it really amusing to be able to watch the monitor and tell me when the contractions were coming... I had to tell him gently that really it wasn't that amusing. The nurse checked me and I was still at 3cm which concerned me a little but I didn't think too much of it. In the next few minutes she told me that they were going to admit me and decided to do a last minute ultrasound. When she put the probe on my belly and she asked me if I was sure that the baby was head down I got so scared. My first thought was oh god, there's no brain. The nurse worked the probe up along the spine and sure enough there was her head up under my belly button. The last thing I was thinking about when she told me the baby was breach was what the sex was. From that moment it was a total whirlwind. I remember crying and telling Ben to call his sister. A doctor came in and told me she was on call for Dr. Hebb who was out and would be performing my c-section. She was nice and patient and understanding. I was scared and so was poor Ben but to make matters worse for him, he didn't even really get all the implications of having a c-section. They thrust a gown and cap at him and told him to change and wait for them to come and bring him to the operating room and he was gone.

Within 15 minutes I was in the operating room with the anesthesiologist and the next thing you knew they were cutting. It took what felt like an eternity to see my baby but it was really special to see them pull her out. The experience was only marred by someone exclaiming we have meconium. I was pretty much panicked at this point. Poor Ben still had no idea what was going on. So she was whisked away by the NICU people who evidently are present at every cesarean birth. They were suctioning her airway because of the meconium and I kept waiting for her to cry and watching her in the mirror over the table. It felt like an eternity passed and I kept asking if she was ok because she looked so blue and wasn't crying. Even though they kept reassuring me that she was fine and that they didn't want her to cry yet so that they could make sure that her airway was clear it was very, very upsetting. She finally did cry though and it was beautiful.

They wrapped her and let Ben hold her for all of ten seconds while I took a peak at her. Then it was off to the NICU for Chase and over to recovery for me. It took about an hour and a half to get the feeling back in my legs and they wheeled me over to my room in post partum. Let me tell you, I love souvlaki but I paid dearly for having eaten it for dinner only two short hours before undergoing major surgery. I was sick as a dog for a long time which is partly why I didn't get to see my baby until after lunch.

Once I finally got up to the NICU to see her they explained that even though they thought that they had gotten everything in the operating room that the meconium had caused as irritation in her lungs and that she would have to be treated with antibiotics for an unknown length of time until the irritation resolved. It was so sad to not be able to have her in the room with us but we are so glad that the treatment only lasted 4 days and that we were all able to be discharged together on Monday. The parents of the baby that shared her room in the NICU had to stay the full 7 days so it could have been a lot worse.

Mostly I'm so happy that she's here. It makes everything worth it. Even though things didn't go the way I thought they might in my head I am still very happy. Everyone at GBMC was really really nice. The nurses were caring and helpful which was a breath of fresh air compared to the ICU nurses at UMMC which is really my only other experience with being hospitalized.

Now we're home so let the good times roll...

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

How a Dog Throws a Dinner Party

First set the table...
Then wait for the guests to arrive...While we were at the doctor's today Teenie (and possibly Cricket) helped themselves to what they thought would be a tasty treat. Unfortunately for them when they ripped into the takeout bag all they found were the packs of plastic silverware. For some reason... maybe because she thought there was a chance there would be a salt or soy sauce packet inside she ripped them both open too. I took a picture of the destruction when we got home.

Days 1 & 2


There's so much that I want to post. Unfortunately there just doesn't seem to be enough hours in the day to get to it. Our first and second nights home were pretty good. Chase wakes up every four or so hours to nurse but everything has otherwise been uneventful. Last night there was a bit of a spitup fiasco but we managed ok. Today was our first trip to the pediatrician's office. Chase was very cooperative and seems to like Dr. Tellerman which is a good thing since we'll be spending a lot of time in that office in the upcoming months. She's almost back to her birth weight. She's up to 8 lbs down from 8lbs 3.6oz. This afternoon I need a nap. Maybe tonight or tomorrow I'll post a birth story for those of you who don't already know it. If I'm really ambitious maybe I'll respond to some of the email I haven't gotten back to.

Going in the car



Monday, January 08, 2007

We're Home!!

So Long NICUMom, is the hat supposed to cover my eyes?

Going home
Chase meets the pups.

Daddy
Ok, she totally looks like ME in this picture. I know there's someone out there who agrees with me.

Introducing Chase Alexis

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

39 Week Appointment

No change! I can't believe it. I've been contracting since yesterday... and today more regularly all day and nothing. My doctor asked me if I wanted to be induced next week but I opted to wait it out. Honestly though I am seriously reconsidering that.

More Smoke, Still No Fire

Through sheer willpower I managed to stay in bed and sleep through most of the night. I was up and down to the bathroom 100 times but no more contractions. Now that I'm upright again, lots of pressure I have to assess what's going on once the fog clears out. Oh how I long for coffee.

Monday, January 01, 2007

Nesting?

So I stayed up ran the dishwasher, handwashed what was left (following the whole cupcake fiasco), did a load of laundry, filled out the paperwork for our flex benefits reimbursement, and paid some bills. I finally crashed around 630 or so after watching a couple of episodes of Law and Order. So I got in a few hours before I woke up again just before 9. One of the cats kept eying me all cockeyed like so I kept expecting something to happen but mostly just got a few random contractions.

Today around 4 as we ate lunch at Panera I thought to myself... hmm.. what is that tightening and decided to head on home. They're still irregular but have been persistent for a couple of hours so maybe they'll intensify. If nothing else, I have an appointment tomorrow at 2:15 so I won't have to wait to find out if anything's going on. Happily my doctor is back tomorrow, she's probably back tonight in fact :).

Happy New Year

Ok, so I slept through midnight... but I'm up now that must count for something. We actually had a nice time at a friend's potluck, I just couldn't make it until midnight in spite of my best efforts. I know that being up now will leave me feeling totally exhausted tomorrow but what can I do? At least it's a holiday and I can try to nap and recover.