I Want a Do-Over

So I've been back and forth for a couple of weeks on whether or not I needed to post this. Since it's been a while since I've posted anything of substance I figure I'll give it a shot. So I loved being pregnant. And as much as I love Chase and couldn't wait for her to get here I think that maybe the way the delivery went didn't give me the closure I was looking for and I sort of feel... well a lot of different things about it. I definetely mis the closeness we had when it was just me and her and sometimes when I'm rolling over in bed at night I forget that she's here already and think I'm feeling her move and that leaves me feeling a little sad. Not to mention that not being pregnant makes me resent that I still have to wear my maternity jeans. I don't think I'll ever get my butt back into my pre pregnancy jeans. It makes me sad when other people tell me about their deliveries and how they went even though I'm just glad that we're both healthy and the she's here I just can't help feeling a little cheated even though I know I shouldn't.

Other than that things have been going pretty smoothly. We went to the new mom's group yesterday and aside from the fact that the facilitator does a lousy job I got some good tips
that made Tuesday night much much better than Monday night from hell. Today I think we'll go out for a little while to get some daylight exposure. Maybe Starubucks maybe the book store we'll let you know.